LackoTheMonkeyBoy

its been awhile..

2010-06-23T18:26:00.002+08:00

its been sometime since i last blogged.
very tired, very lazy laa. haiyaa.
many things have happened nowadays.
good, bad. happy and even sad. boo =.=
nowadays im working everyday,
as im saving up money for my license in the days to come.
DAYS, and not months (:
i seriously cant wait for it.
but i have to. cause rushing is not a good thing to do, right? haha.
i'll try my best to be very patient from now on. geee.
tmr working as usual, eventhough im tired,
im still gonna work really hard to gett what i want.
i dont mind playing in the rain,
standing in the hot sun,
or even having to carry heavy things as long as i gett that sum of money.
i promise, i wont let anything gett in my way (:
mummy said she'll help me with the motorbike. yayy!
till here, i wish myself all the best. HAHAHA! ;)

forgive me for my love before,
how i wish i could make it up to you :'(

2010-05-28T21:04:00.001+08:00

sorry for not updating for such a long time.
im lazy, im tired and im busy with lots of stuffs.
now sch hols have come, i'll be busy working.
even with my finger like this, i'll still work the usual work. hee.
i dont wanna find other jobs laa. not interested at all. hehs.
so yea, anything just beep my phone okay?
byebye.

2010-05-14T19:34:00.002+08:00

what hurts the most,

is getting so close.

having so much to say,

then watching you walk away.

2010-05-13T20:25:00.005+08:00

hey, didnt went to school just now due to woke up late. haiyaa.
yest went out with my friends, went makan at changi village, then went riding (:
veryvery fun, till we didnt even thot of going home. hahaha!
thanks to my friends, i felt much better. you guys always make me laugh. damn you! ;D
tmr, have to go to school. mummy mengamok siaa nnt. pfft!
andand, i also dont wanna get a debar form. grr.
school's gonna be over soon, just have to bear with it. hee.

sometimes, i feel left out. if only you knew about it. i really feel left out.
im sorry if i didnt get to meet you just now.
imissyou, i really do.
i just didnt show it :(

62 more days~

2010-05-12T00:11:00.002+08:00

eventhough when im upset,
you'll always see that "happy-go-lucky" smile whenever :)

time:12.12am

2010-05-11T21:01:00.004+08:00

one more month left, then holidays come. cant wait! (:
holidays, idk what to do. my friends will be busy working.
and i'll be at home doing nothing? hais. cann somebody give me a job?
an easy one, cause with my hand in this condition, i cant carry heavy stuffs.
fcuk siaa! i made a wrong move. dammit. now i cant work the usual work.
i really wanna work this june hols, cause im saving money for something.
something that i've been waiting for. hais.. please? anyone? offer me a job? )':

school have been wonderful this few days. get to meet that somebody everyday!
i always smile upon seeing her face (: gee.
but lately, the weather has been very hot. walk abit, sweating ald. haiyoo.
nnt busuk tkde org nak cium. booo! ;D
will be having exams in times to come. really have to get ready for it.
though i dont quite understand, i'll try my best yea! ;)

just now, i checked my bag, and i found that letter you wrote yest.
aww, i was so touched. how sweet of you to write that letter to me (:
bibi, you got all the time that you need. theres no need to rush at all.
sometimes, taking the longest route is the best.
but after what i heard he said to you, it'll be difficult for you.
but nvm, just hang on and let time take over.
im not impt, just concentrate on your happiness. hee.
your presence is enuf to make me happy ald. thats all i need for now.
being together isint the matter. all that matters is that youre happy with your life.

2 more months and i'll be the happiest guy in Singapore! hahaa! mcm btol aje.
its the moment i've been waiting for (: i'll get what i want, just wait and see.

2010-05-11T08:30:00.002+08:00

even when im sad, im wont say a thing to you.
cause i know hows the situation now.
even so, i'll just keep quiet.
upset about the bracelet, but what cann i do?
nvmnvm, just know that iloveyou..
youre not like before, but i'll just shhhh. :')

2 more months to go. please make me wait.
i seemed to get so frustrated seeing other ppl.
you guys just say what you want,
i'll slowly get what i want.
just wait and see, i'll prove you guys wrong ;)
it doesnt matter if you ald have,
cause im gonna have one too.. soon soon..

2010-05-08T17:49:00.002+08:00

My expections for you

i wont expect much from you,
cause i know that you still love him too.
im here to make you stand once again,
giving you the strength to stand tall.
i'll try my best to make you happy,
i'll give my all to make you smile.
even a single tears that drops from your eyes,
i'll consider that i've failed my task.
i know where im standing now,
and i accept it all.
im here, to make you stand tall :')

2010-05-07T21:38:00.003+08:00

dont let one little thing spoil it all.

it doesnt benefit you at all. not even abit.

live your life like how its suppose to be,

and forget everything that happens.

dont cry over spilled milk,

cause it only brings you regret.

let everything go, and you'll be just fine ;)

im here to make you stand once again.

show me that you really wanna all this,

and i'll be happy like how you wanted me to be.

bibi's girl~

2010-04-23T13:49:00.001+08:00

sorry for not updating my blog for so long.
after i broke my knuckle, im so lazy to update. truly sorry yea?
hehs. byebye. anything text my phone aje laa. more easier (;
take care everyone. byebye.

2010-04-02T21:01:00.007+08:00

to all my brothers,
im sorry if i hadnt been slacking with you guys. its not that i have forgotten all of you, but i was just busy with work. you guys also nvr text me, ajak lpk or sumthing, thats why i assume that you all were busy. haiyaa. nvr did i knew that you guys would miss me. abg ajid told me yest. wahh, i was so touched (: i'll meet you guys soon when im free, we'll slacked till morning okay? :D iloveyou, bros!

to my someone special, i really miss you but i know you cant text me for now. i know & i understand you. butbut, i just wanna tell you that i just miss you so much! )': it might not be easy for me to fight this "missing you" thingy, but i'll always lay low just so that everything wont be a mess.
iloveyou, imissyou, ineedyou! iloveMYbabygirl!
we love us~

2010-03-30T22:11:00.003+08:00

this few days, i've been working all the time.
thats why i didnt update. hehe.
penat tau org keje. walao!
butbut, im saving my money for my license! yayy!
baby, keep supporting me okay? :)

i've been working and working till i got no time for myself.
finish work, go home sleep. booo!
but i'll always have time for my someone special (: hee.

it felt like so long since the last time we met, but actually, its not.
i started to miss you, when you took the train for home.
even when you walked away for awhile, the miss that i possesed, is too strong.
now, im missin you badly. each time we plan to meet, it wont happen.
always have sumthing that will spoil our plan. dammit!
butbut, i dont blame you. its fate that decides everything kann bie? ;)
all i want, is you, to be by my side always.
thats all im asking from you baby. iloveyou ;D
we love us! huhuu~
even when i know we cant be together. i still love you (':

2010-03-24T14:17:00.004+08:00

heyyhey!
yest, i worked. andand work was fun.
didnt have much things to do though.
we have to wait for the container to arrive.
janji pukol 11am, tapy tk dtgdtg.
had our lunch at 1130am, then we sleep! wooo! :D
slept till 230pm, then started to bring all the things down.
at 3pm then the container arrived. bodoh! hahaa.
didnt have to do anything cause my supervisor said tkpayah (: wee.
sat down with ayie, talktalktalk. hahaa.
got $50 for. . . nothing ;D

ex-girlfriend didnt let me work this job,
because i always have injuries.
that time, my finger kena slammed with fax machine, then bengkak. hahaa.
then my hipbones langgar kayu, bengkak also.
bt dear, this is the only job i like.
i cant do other jobs. not suitable for me laa. hee. im so sorry.
i'll always take care of myself okay bie? (:

had fun working with ayie, nvr stop to laugh whenever im with him. hees.
today not working, its my off day. haa. dont know what to do at home. booo!
okay laa, bye!

We Love Us!

2010-03-22T12:40:00.002+08:00

weyy! kwnkwn aku, bkn mcm kau pehh kwnkwn.
kau punyer sume backstabbers pala buto!
mine's different from yours.
i choose my friends right. hah. atleast i appreciate with the things i have.
no use kau msg aku ckp sorry laa, ape laa. tk bererti laa.
i dont need you, to ruin my life.
adr jantan tu sudah laa, tk perlu nk kacau hidop aku lagy ;)
booooo! once a sucker, always a sucker (:

my friends,
are way different from yours, bitch.

2010-03-21T16:54:00.002+08:00

these few days, have been cntctin my ex-girlfriend.
we talk about things, which made me smiled everyday.
the sweetest part was when she called me at 5am,
cried, and said "i just miss you so much"
ohh myy, didnt thot so that she would cry. haiyaa.
baby baby, dont cry okay. i cann always be there for you now.
im single ald. no one cann stop me now right? (;
atleast i got you now. i cann be happy the way we are with each other.
we'll meet up soon again okay :D i love my candiie girl!

to hyydayah lee,
thanks for all the support and encouragement that you and amin gave to me.
really needed all those. hehs. now im doing really fine.
ilove all my friends, they nvr fail to makeme happy. yayy!
friendship last forever, eventhough we're far apart (:
one day, we eat kachiaaaaaag okay? (:

2010-03-19T19:51:00.002+08:00

ex-girlfriend, thanks for coming over and meetin me.
it was quite random yest when you called,
and i was lucky that i called bck. hahaa!
imissyou though, and so did you.
thanks for meetin me, i really had a great time with you.
now my holidays come ald, we cann always meet! yayy! :D
shhhh~ ltr got ppl scold you know. booo! iloveyou (:

2010-03-19T00:08:00.002+08:00

i cant seem to go on.
each time i see your pic,
my eyes goes teary.
i feel down, i feel lost.
i feel as if i've lost everything.
whats happening?
what happened to our promises?
what happened to our happiness together?
whyy must this happen?
why? why? why?
im confused, im frustrated with myself.
idk what else to do.
my phone's so quiet,
theres no msgs from you, no calls :'(
hais! bby! whats happening now?
what will become of me ltr?
what am i supposed to do next?
who cann i be pampered with?
all these questions, are breaking me down.
baby, give me your hands,
pick me up from where i've fallen.
hug me, hold me tight, kiss me.
i cant, i cant go on much longer.
i need you, i need you here with me,
encouraging me.
bie! where are you? :'(

2010-03-18T14:53:00.004+08:00

strawberry kisses, no more.

i'll fake my smiles and my laugh,
just to see you happy.
strawberry kisses, no more :'(

2010-03-17T21:25:00.002+08:00

love is for two, not three. *suckers* :)

today is our 2nd monthsary (:
bought for girlfriend a small cake, strawberry heart-shaped cake.
hehs. i was really happy to see girlfriend smiling,
after we had a little misunderstanding in the morning. fcuk!
i dont get it, why must we quarrel when the fault doesnt comes from the both of us?
third party? hahaa. i guess so. fuck right?! haiyaa. dont know laa.
i feel like deleting my facebook ald. dammit. -.-"
luckily girlfriend was happy just now, im really glad.

"im sorry for everything that happened earlier,
im sorry for all those harsh words that i've said to you.
things arent just following our way. hais.
lets change it? cann? i dont wann this to keep happening.
it'll spoil our relationship in the end.
i dowan. just rmbr that i love you, effy!"

lastly, Happy 2nd monthsary elfidiana!

2010-03-16T23:56:00.000+08:00

i feel so down. . .

i think, im falling. . .

2010-03-15T19:20:00.002+08:00

time flies babyy ~ two souls, one beat.

i still rmbrd the ferst time we met,
under the blk then went to lavender.
ferst i was shy, bt after, its as if we knew each other for long.

had fun slackin with each other at lavender.

it was sweet of you to accompany me just to make my passport.

then, i fell in love.

your way of entertaining me was beyond my imagination.

it was slow, bt at the same time, melting my heart.

the way you look at me was "one of kind".

the kisses we had, the hugs we shared.

everything was out of my thots.

we started our relationship well,

but tell me, which relationship doesnt have ups and downs? hehs.
we went thru it even it was painful.
suffer now, happiness ltr (: right bie?

i dowan make girlfriend sad anymore.

and im trying my best to strengthen things up.

i aint gonna let this go so easily.

"i was down before, but you picked me up with your loving hands"

lets make everything worthwhile. all we need is faith with each other.

iloveyou, effy! & i'll always will.

170110~ strawberry kisses.

2010-03-11T21:04:00.007+08:00

Heyy baby! you make me love you!

just now went to sch as per normal,

was late for class bt i dont care. hahaa.

met baby during lunch and after her class.

awww, how i wish you knew how much i love you baby!

we sat arnd, talked & laughed with each other. hees.

iloveyou, effy! :)

tmr, supposed to werk.

bt the job was cancelled. hais.

bt good also laa. get to mitt baby! weee!

tmr all theory lessons. gonna be boring. boo! =.=

baby, you better wait for me tmr!

i dont care! bluekk! hahaa.

you nvr wait, you dont talk to me uhh. grr.

its been so long since we spent time together dear.

we had our hard times, bt we went thru it together.

lets be strong and continue our love,

lets not let a small thing, destroy our drug.

hold tight to my hands, with love, we stand :)

im soo in love with you effy!

*lets play spit again, bby!*

*AdorableLovesStrawberry*

2010-03-09T21:12:00.002+08:00

have been busy schoolin these days.
hols coming up, and exams are arnd the corner. haiyaa.
need to study. ltr girlfriend scold. bluekk! :D
go sch, very tired due to the weather. its effin hot nowadays.
cnt stand it ald. bt what to do, still have to go sch liao. booo!

i wanna get something for girlfriend.
it caught my attention the moment i saw it. hee.
girlfriend wanna know?! hahaa! no way! wait for it okay.
it'll soon come to you. hehs. just be patient.
i hope its still there siaa. haiyaa.

im missin my girlfriend. the moment she walked away from me, i'll always start to miss her ald.
can you not walk away from me? just stay with me. be with me always. cann you bie? :)
iloveyou, effy.

2010-03-09T08:02:00.001+08:00

my heart is shivering..

afraid you might leave me.

2010-03-08T22:30:00.003+08:00

girlfriend, i know he's in bad condition. but that doesnt mean you have to be there each and everyday. he needs you? then what about me? you think i dont need you? isit? hmm. he got his own family to take care of him. you dont have to go there each and everyday, tiring yourself eventhough youre sleepy. you meet him everyday till late night then you go home. i msg you, nvr reply, i called, nvr answer. its so sad, you know. hais. you dont spent much time with me now. jumpe kt skola skejap, then youre off to hosp. mcm i ni bkn mataer you gitu. imagine, you in my situation, how would you feel? im tired of always keeping quiet. bt when i express everything, you'll say i changed. if only you know how im feeling now, then you'll understand.

2010-03-07T19:27:00.003+08:00

maybe to you, you wont see it for yourself.
bt to me its clearly stated.
you dont spent much time with me now.
you dont text me much,
you dont call me often.
even when i call you, you didnt answer.
all your times, was with him.
you may think that its nothing.
bt deep down, im hurt. hais.
he must have meant so much to you.
each and everyday you go down there to see him.
even when youre tired, you still went there.
when i asked you not to go, you give me many reasons.
trust me, if this keeps going on, your feelings towards him,will change.
and i bet now, he's loving more.
dont mind me. im fine here. always have.

2010-03-05T06:27:00.002+08:00

time check: 6.27am.

today im werking bt girlfriend doesnt know about it.
werking for this sat, suppose to go out with her.
bt, i dont think it we will, due to some reasons.
i know you wont want to go out.
its okay.

nak degil, degil pandai.
jgn degil, menyusahkann org! hah.

2010-03-02T23:25:00.004+08:00

have faith in me,
we'll be fine together (:

as the days passes by,
things get better eventually.
all bcos, of idk what. hahaa.
actually, my anger wont last for long.
if you know how to comfort me,
it wont be long, i'll be fine.
like i said, it takes time for a wound to heal.
soo babygirl, dont worry.
im still here for you even though im angry or sad, happy or mad.
i wont go anywhere (:
now, things are showing some improvement between girlfriend and me.
im sorry for all the things that happened before.
just do rmbr that i'll always love you, girl.

"you make me fall, bt you came bck and picked me up.
i smiled and hugged you, you held me tight as if you dont wanna let me go.
i hold your hands and said, i love you, effy" (:

things cann be difficult between us,
bt it doesnt mean we just give up and let go.
we need to find a way to solve everything,
just to see the happy smiles on our faces each day.
obstacles will occur, bt dont you worry.
i'll hold your hand tight, and we'll be fine.

2010-03-01T23:00:00.002+08:00

i wish,
you were here with me, tonight.

2010-02-28T23:22:00.003+08:00

even when i say that im not cntcting lalaa anymore,
you said all those to me.
you asked me if you stop cntcting din, will i stop cntcting lalaa.
and i said, im not cntcting lalaa anymore.
and now, youre saying all those "dont have to" say stuffs to me?
i didnt change at all. its the situation right now.
you think its easy for me when everything is repeating itself? pfft.
nvmnvm. i wont say another word.
i just wont say anything anymore. i'll keep quiet like how i used to be.
that way more better for me.

2010-02-27T12:07:00.002+08:00

im falling

down

down

down

down

down

2010-02-26T19:45:00.002+08:00

i love you, Effy! (:

heyyheyy!
have been going to sch this week.
have alot of problems in studies.
its like im falling far from my subjects. hais!
im trying my best to study hard yea.
girlfriend has been a great support in my studies.
she advised me to go to sch each&everyday.
one, is bcos my study is impt.
two, is bcos she wants to mitt me everyday! wee!
iloveyou girlfriend!

this week, my friends&i was involved in a fight with this matrep.
haiyaa. dont know laa. dont wanna talk about it.
boo! suckers laa this kind of ppl! hahaa!
no time laa weyy!

wednesday, gave baby a box of Ferrero Rocher.
it was a gift of apology. its just a small one laa. hehs.
bt baby was blushing! ahhhh!
im soo loving you girlfriend.
im sorry for what i had done.
all this while, you were always there like i've always wanted.
Thanks soo much Nur ElfiDiana. I-Love-You!

friday, baby didnt came to sch as she was sick.
baby had a headache and gastric, i think. hee.
soo sad, i couldnt be there for babylove. im truly sorry.
gett well soon sayang! i cant see you this way. soo sad. hais.
eat your meddy everyday okay? (: dont be stubborn! bluekk!

tmr, supposed to go out with baby,
bt baby is sick. so she cant go out.
hahaa! i wont even let her go out laa! pui!
SIT AT HOME QUIETLY! hee :D
soo maybe im going out with my friends la (:

i miss my girlfriend so much.
the whole day today for me was so lonely.
was veryy sleepy when baby wasnt with me.
bt im the one who should be with baby.
i should be there for her.
im sorry dear, cause i wasnt there when you needed me.
to hear you say that you miss me,was veryveryy sad, lovee.
im truly sorry.

now, im looking forward to monday.
cause baby will be going to sch. yayy!
im gonna miss you sayang!
iloveyou soo soo much!

im sorry dear.

2010-02-23T19:18:00.004+08:00

went to sch just now as per normal,
met friends, then met girlfriend.
had a great time with her (:

i thot of meeting you after your class,
cause i have something to give you.
looked for it the whole afternoon bt couldnt find it anywhere.
i bought something different instead.
i was happy that i ald bought something,
bt then, you told me that we're not meetin.
my heart shattered. i couldnt say anything.
bt yea, like what you said, we'll meet tmr then.
it was a gift of apology. haiss.
nvm, i'll just give it to you tmr. )':

to My Favourite Girl,

im sorry for everything that happened,
everything that made you upset or angry.
im sorry if i lied, im sorry for not telling the truth.
im sorry for everything that made you cried,
im sorry for hurtin you.
im sorry for all the wrong doings that i've done.
im truly sorry.

bby, i know youre upset,
bt let me tell you that i and her, are just closefriends.
nothing more than that. i swear.
i got you to love now, and i need not have another.
i just want you to know that,
I Love You Soo Much, lovee.

each day, its all about you (:

2010-02-21T18:28:00.005+08:00

firstly, i wanna talk bout yest.
yest, went rounding with my friends take lorry.
we went to alot of places to pick up our friends.
fun! bt then, the lorry tyre went ,"pssssssssst!"
theres a hole. hahahah! everybody scared ald.
bt we still manage to reach bck yewtee and go some other places too!
it fun effin fun! bt not that fun cause i miss girlfriend♥ :(

today, sit at home whole day. lazy wanna go out. now somemore raining. sleep more better. hee! :D currently, waiting for girlfriend♥ to wake up. wanna call her laa, miss her voice! booo!

tmr, schooling as per normal. cant wait to meet girlfriend! wooo! tmr will wait for girlfriend♥ until finish sch. then i'll go home. hehs (: I Love My Favourite Girl♥

its really sad when we have to walk separate distances. just bcos we live in different places. girlfriend's in simei, and im in yewtee. quite a far distance. each time she have to go, i feel as if sumthing is missing. felt different. my friends always say, "lack, asl diam? effy tkde je kau diam. dalaa, bsok bole jumpe lagy." then i smiled, cause i know that i have to be thankful, that i get to mitt her each&everyday (: even though we live faraway, im glad enuf that i've got you.

even when you walk away for a second,
im ald starting to miss your presence, ♥

my favourite girl,
I Love You♥

this was the ferst day we met.
the ferst day we talked.
the ferst day, i started to admire her ^.^

my favourite girl♥

2010-02-20T15:38:00.002+08:00

nothing much happened lately.
bt i'll update for girlfriend la :D

yest went lpk at yewtee with friends.
i fell asleep halfway. haha.
i slept for 3hours siaa.
woke up at 415am. smoke, then went home.
hahaa. puas hati tkya lpk siaa. boo~!

girlfriend was always doing sweet things.
nvr fail to make me smile. hee.
how am i suppose to leave her?
i dont think i will,
i dont think i can.
youre the one who lit up my life.
you gave me the hope to love once more.
now, i need you here with me.
to show me the right way.
iloveyou, babygirl.
♥♥♥♥

tired bt happy (:

2010-02-19T19:23:00.002+08:00

just came bck from cross country.
damn! im dead beat! haiyaa.
run so fast, get 41th position. basket!
haha! nvm la, atleast i tried siaa! hee.

girlfriend♥ got 5th place siaa!
so shocked! bt im proud of my babygirl♥ (:
"great job hunney♥ . atleast you got a medal."
hees.

still wondering why, outsiders have to interfere.
its between us here, not you guys out there okay!
so just mind your own business la.
come on la. you wont like it when i interfere in yours too.
so just shut your fcuking trap and fcuk off okay.
*suckers* :P

♥ babygirl, im trying to be strong here
and not hearing what ppl got to say.
i'll just keep my ears close and hope everything will be fine.
iloveyou, effy!♥ (:

still loving you

2010-02-18T19:50:00.002+08:00

hold my hands till you cant,
stay in my arms till you wont.
kiss my lips till it drys,
hold me tight till i die.

our love only needs the strength to carry on.

im still standing strong.
just for you baby.

tick tock

2010-02-17T21:08:00.005+08:00

i'll just wait as time goes by.
. . .

you'll always see,
a smile on my face.
so that you wont know,
whether im sad or im happy.

life turning bck
as per normal
as the days passby.
no more special things that will happen.

forget bout it baby.

2010-02-13T23:30:00.002+08:00

all i want is the truth.
no point lying,
cause you'll feel bad anw.
i dont blame you for lying to me.
its just that you should have told me the truth.
lies arent the way to hide things from me.
maybe the truth hurts, bt its still the best for us.
i not angry, im just sad.
bt rest assure, i'll always love you, girlfriend (:

2010-02-13T15:47:00.001+08:00

im not gonna be happy leaving singapore.
hais.

Strawberry kisses came true.

2010-02-12T18:59:00.006+08:00

just now went to sch as per normal.
after sch, met hunn♥ at 247.
slacked, then hunn♥ got me my strawberries (:
she went thru all the trouble to put those strawberries in a box,
and put it in a fridge in one of the stalls in sch.
How Sweet! ahhhhh!
i was so paisey siaa! i didnt thot she would do that
cause i said i wanted it cold. haiyaa!
bt hunn♥, you really showed me your love.
i love you, you know! :D

inside the box, also have a loveletter hunn♥ wrote for me. hees. veryvery touching. i was blushinng siaa when hunn♥ asked me to read. i was shocked yet veryvery happy indeed. you went thru all that troubles for me. im so gonna get you sumthing! bluekk!

tmr will be going to KL with famm. hunn♥ was sad when she knew that today is the last we're spending time. tmr im off ald. dont worry dear♥, im gonna return safely. just be strong and wait for my return. im so gonna miss you when im off! haiyaa.

You showed me your love, now its my turn.

you made me smile when im with you.
your smile was all i saw,
making my heart fall in your arms.
laughters that cant be stop,
love that cant be bought.

i love you.

2010-02-10T18:34:00.011+08:00

hellohello! :)
been busy schooling this few days.
spending time with friends & especially my baby♥!
always had a great day with my loved ones.

Monday, didnt sch. teacher on course.
met hunney♥ in the morning then went to poly.
took num ald, skali ramai org. walao!
actually we was supposed to go my hse.
bt my mummy didnt werk. our plan failed. boo!
we slacked at teck whye till noon.

really had a great time laughing with hunney.

i love you sayaaaang! (:

tuesday, didnt went to sch due to pants havent washed.
miss baby siaa. sit at home like stupid. haiyaa.
then go hosp cause mummy sick. grr!
only get to talk otp. haiyaa.

today, went to sch. had p.e lesson.
very tired. booo! like want to faint. hehs.
then met hunney somewhere. wee!!
fun! i like! i want! i want again! gee.

i had a tiff with hunn just now. due to some reasons. "i wasnt angry baby. not even abit." "i just didnt want to make you feel upset. thats all." im really sorry sweetheart. iloveyou ,& i want the strawberry! bluekk!

lets not get this in our way,
lets just make our love, great.

let ppl say what they wanna say,

as long as youre here, i wont be afraid."i love every single bit of you. i just wont turn my back and walk away."

your one&only,

Muhd Noah (:

What if. . .

2010-02-07T10:38:00.006+08:00

yest went out with hunney♥ and her lil sis and bf. ferst met at city hall, bt then hunn♥ gave wrong information of where to mitt. she still can say, "alaa, you mane nk ingat kann klw klua dgn i." padahal bby yg salah tingkat siaa. haha. i was at the right place you know! boo! after that went to cineyleisure, ate pastamania then walk arnd while waiting for our movie to start. went up, bought for hunn♥ the anklet that she wanted. hee. we watched tooth fairy. ohh myy, damn funny siaa! hahaa! must go watch okay? hahaah. after movie, we slacked arnd for awhile. smokeysmokey, then bby have to go tamp mitt her daddy. nk buy hp for her lil sis. hunney♥ seems so happy yest (: im happy too. sape tk happy klw dpt spend time dgn org yg disayang kann? hehs. thanks for everything sweetheart. you always made me smile. you've changed my everyday life. ♥

i ♥ you Effy!

Love doesnt need to be put in words,
Love is better shown than said.
Words doenst mean anything if you dont mean it,
Love doesnt mean anything if you dont show it.
i love you baby (:

dont be scared, im here for you (:

2010-02-03T19:09:00.003+08:00

im not angry hunney.
you dont have to be afraid alright?
everything happens for a reason.
just show me that im the one in your heart.
and im happy enuf :)

fall for you :)

2010-02-02T19:08:00.009+08:00

Sorry for not updating.. haha.
have been busy schooling laa.
now schoolboy ald, studystudystudy! boo!

many things happened this few days.
too much to talk about la.
malas nk type. hehs.
just wait for my nxt update okay? :)

you made my day hunney :)

last week got keje kahwin at tamp,
hunney came down to meet me. hee.
had fun laughing with her.
sorry if i bullied you alot. haha.
thanks for coming down to mitt me.
how sweet of you. wee!
i miss you so much! =D

you wont know when im sad or angry.
im starting to love you.
please dont upset me.

make me stand, give me strength.

2010-01-30T07:50:00.002+08:00

Scared
To
Fall
Again.
Please
Give
Me
The
Strength
To
Stand

Strong.

I dont want any pain, anymore :'(

tmr meetin hunn♥! yayy! =D

2010-01-26T20:32:00.003+08:00

today sch was great.
nothing much bt very funny.
class was havoc when they ald know my attitude.
ohh myy. haha!
yea, im quiet. bt dont be shocked if you see the different me =)

tmr not going to sch, cause im making my passport. wee!
fetching hunney♥ from sch, then go lavender. yayy!
bt i'll be gone on the 14th&15th of feb.
going KL with my fam. haha.
hunney♥ dont notti2 eh.
i'll be watchin. cheyy! hahaa!
cant wait to meet hunn♥ tmr =D

played soccer just now in sch.
weather was damn hot bt we still played.
for 6mths we havent been playing. grr!
tiring bt fun. my stomach painpain you know. hehs.

got a lecture from my class advisor(form teacher)
need to see my sect head. damn!
now she knows that im from ite balestier.
shit mann. urgh!
spoiled my mood, making my interest in studies,
GO DOWN!

and to my hunnhunn♥,
sorry i couldnt go home with you.
you nvr tell me earlier. hehs.
nxt time must tell in advance okay? =)
*strawberry kisses♥*

2010-01-24T20:16:00.002+08:00

today damn bored.
going out with family ltr on. hee.
go mknmkn! woo!

a picture each day for our wallpaper.
looked like friends, bt they're more than friends to me.

i wanna kiss,
with a strawberry in your mouth.

School Fun! (=

2010-01-18T23:06:00.004+08:00

Today finished school at 12.

then went lpklpk at yishun with my friends. lalaa was damn funny. hahaha! had great fun with my friends. wee! tmr startin at 0830. cnt late, nnt kene stayback lagy. haha. im reconigsed for comin late always. hehe. tmr maybe finishing late. if my techmaths teacher nvr come, wahh! mesti best! wee! =) tmr going clementi helpin bok pack his hse stuffs. he's moving to boon lay soon. will be helping him move. yayy!

just now lpk, then i slept. when i woke up, mood lari. hehs. dont have to know why okay? i dont wanna tell. bt im fine. dont worry hunn. im fine as always.

you dont have to lie to get away from me.
youre in love with him. not me.
like i said, im fine.

My bestest friend! Ayie! =) everyday go sch with him. 4years in sec sch, now in same ite. haha. great to have you ayie! woohuu!

andand, i had a new haircut just now. like funny like that. bt ayie said okay. hee. dont know la. bt im happy enuf. kpale dah ringan siket. hahahah!

boo you! =)

2010-01-17T18:28:00.003+08:00

so long nvr update blog. act, not that long la. hehe. penat la. balek sch je, lpk. then tido kt rumah smpi bsok pagy. woo! best tau. (:

tmr schoolin. 3hrs only. then go home. bt not actually go home la. maybe got plan. bt havent conferm yet. hee.
lately, i've been talkin otp with diena pig. haha. everyday without fail, we'll talk otp. nnt mcm org gilerr. haha. bt sometimes pon adr moody la. haiyaa.
kay la, apape picet kay. byebye.
i miss you pig! =D

happy times.

2010-01-10T15:28:00.002+08:00

lately, i have been spending most of my times with my beloved frens. hee. was funny when they start to tell jokes. miss their jokes la. very long nvr mitt each other. now they all busy with their own lifes. some NS, some schoolin and also some with their loved ones. wahh! only weekends then we get to mitt. hehs. yest, slack till morn. halfway i m.i.a for awhile. haha! where can tell go where kann. its a secret. gee.
tmr schoolin. woohoo! going early tmr. yeay! see you guys in sch aye? byebye. (:

cute lil baby.
how i wish you were big ald. hahaha!

=)

2010-01-07T22:08:00.005+08:00

Today, sch was fun.
went to ITE Macpherson for some cca roadshow.
we didnt actually go bt infact,
we cabot! haha!
we went out of the sch and took the bus.
we was so confident that the bus will go to paya lebar stn.
end up, we stopped at toa payoh interchange. hahha!
apiss, fifi and me went to fork&spoon to eat, then lpklpk awhile.
fifi's my ferst new girl friend in ite yishun.
she's inda same course bt diff class. hehs.
great to have a friend like her =))

doing great =)

2010-01-05T22:58:00.004+08:00

its been two days since i started school.

everything seems great.
bt i still have no friends in class.
i hate makin new friends la.
can i not make a new friend? please? =(

my teacher is good, classmates also "bole tahan" la.
they nvr disturb me mahh.
so they're considered good la. hehs.

tmr schoolin at 8am.
going with don and bok.
ayie sume start lmbt. hmph!
not fair la seiy! -__-
i'll be finishin at 5pm. haha.
anything just text, my hp is always on =D
byebye. goodnight.

ppl change so fast,
one glimpse, and they've changed.
ferstferst, they'll always reply fast.
bt after some days,
they wont always reply your msgs.
why eh?

new year, new start okay? =)

2010-01-02T01:45:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! =)

new year, new start.
let bygones be bygones.
begin a new chapter in life. haha!

next week start sch ald. yayy!
got so many friends at there la.
andand, ayie also same sch with me.
bt not the same class this time round.

too bad la!

hope this year is gonna be great.
dont want anymore sadness la.
cancan? hee.
im gonna concentrate on my studies.
aiming for higher nitec. hehs.

wish me luck okay everyone?
no more fooling arnd like 2009.
haha! hope i wont be stubborn.
wanna start afresh! wee!

till here i write.
i'll update sometime soon.
byebye. have a great day =)

i miss that buddy of mine.
bt nvm, i'll keep it in my head,
that she's faithful to her BF.
great to see that from you,
Lalaa Parkerr =)

happy! happy! happy!

2009-12-29T01:13:00.002+08:00

just reached home from werk. lpklpk awhile with my friends.
had fun today werkin. hee. bt i feel so tired.
backbone so pain la seiy! pisang!
today i feel so happy cause i've gotten my sch results.
and i managed to get a sch! wee!
nk tau skola mane? haha! find out yourself okay? =)
dont want to tell you all. hees.
while lpk-ing just now, bok had alot to say.
talked about the near future for my friend. gee.
somemore he told me some things la.
feel so sad for him. boo! =(
tmr im werkin again! gaah! tired bt have to.
i've told bok that i'll werk tmr.
hopefully tmr's gonna be fun at werk.
nk kacau bdkbdk baru lagy la! best tau! haha!
till here la. i wanna sleep. byebye. goodnight everyone.
see you when i see you.

i dont need love to be strong.
i just need to be strong to be loved.
thanks to my friends,
they've always been there for me. =)

you can put the blame on me.

2009-12-26T20:08:00.004+08:00

What wrong did i do?

going out! wee! =)

2009-12-25T19:29:00.004+08:00

im going out today. ltr bomb come take me then meet aky and as.

going town! hee! adr motor mahh. so senang sikit kann. gee.
really miss going out with aky. so long nvr go out with him la. now he busy with his camp and also with his loved ones.

so yea, we dont go out as often like we used to. boo!
kay la, i wanna go get ready. byebye.

really miss my old friends. the one that we used to get together.
where have all that gone to? =(

happy birthday! // this is my last to you.

2009-12-24T18:39:00.004+08:00

Those Big Round Eyes =)

happy birthday to Lalaa Pakerr! wee! youre 18 ald huh. and youre legal ald too! hahah.
now can buy ciggy for yourself. no need ask ppl go buy. hees. hope you lead a happy life ahead.
may all your wishes come true. rmbr our two promises? haha. i bet you dont la. hehs. nvm.
i'll keep that in mind. no more sedihsedih eh. you want me to be happy, i also want you to be happy =D lastly, happy birthday to you.

Too Sad To Say ='(

2009-12-23T00:46:00.006+08:00

today, im feelin so so down. haiya. im too sad to talk about it la. bt still, it wont change things right? hrmm. i just wanna forget about it. "love aint gonna be a big deal to me now." too much thoughts, yet too little space to think. wanna think bout it bt i cant. ape saje la. can i not sleep today? pleaseplease? hehs.
today im givin my smokin an upgrade! more sticks for each day. yay! hee. bt someone wont be happy. gee. hais. ppl say you gotta work for sumthing that you want right? i've worked for it, bt . . .
from now on, i wont work for sumthing that i want. PHOEBIA. haha!
dah la. enuf for now. i'll update soon. when im feeling better, or maybe i wont. haha.

byebye.

those big round eyes.

2009-12-22T21:52:00.000+08:00

I gonna miss you baby!

busy! busy! busy!

2009-12-18T00:07:00.002+08:00

too busy to update my blog. no time ald la. everyday werk, go home, sleep.
haha. i'll update soon okay. byebye.

2009-12-13T15:50:00.005+08:00

i really miss my sec sch classmates. some of them arent in this pic la. haha.
miss those crazy times we had. haiya. i miss boo! so long nvr see her. pfft!
yg laen slalu jumpe. hehe. so tk kesah sgt la kann. really want to mitt them someday.
haiya.

yest, lpk with ayie till 4am. 2ppl only. we ate cup noodle cause we're bored. haha. yg laen keje la, klua la.
hehs. kte 2org je dah bole gylerr. hee. when we mitt, we'll always be the crazy ones. ppl wont know why and what we laugh about. hahaha! 4years in sec sch, same class and still going on. everyday mitt each other. hehe.

been busy lately.

2009-12-12T14:32:00.002+08:00

hey, sorry for leaving my blog discarded eh. i've been busy werking lately la. start pagy, balek after midnight. haha. what to do. the pay quite good mahh. hehe. tired, bt no choice.

today got no plan. dont know want to go where. smlm dah dpt gaji, bt today tk tau nk gy mane. haiya. anyone want to go out msg me la kay? =)

i've been ubberly upset with myself la. cant tell you why la. pfft! lets not talk bout it kay. "you should have just told me." heh.

dah la, pape picet je la. byebye. *upset* -__-

sorry, no time to update.

2009-12-02T01:06:00.002+08:00

sorry for not updating my blog. tkde time uh.
hehs. sorry eh. i'll update soon kay. hee.
byebye.

today got soccer!

2009-11-29T14:51:00.002+08:00

today i'll be playing soccer at commonwealth sec. Friendly with bdk Canggih.
cant wait la seiy! must smoke alot, drink loads of redbull and not forgetting, my chocolate. hees. kay la. nk siap2. byebye.

going out today! yay!

2009-11-28T16:21:00.002+08:00

hey ppl, today im going out la seiy! dah lamer tk klua kann.
bored siaa dok rumah! monyet btol. today mittin my friends at town.
mesti HAPPENING! haha. apape picet kay.

all for you. not for me.

2009-11-26T00:33:00.003+08:00

i understand you. i dont mind. we're just buddies right? hehs. its okay.

Happy 17TH Birthday LolliBambam! =D
May all your wishes come true. wee!

crazy day out.

2009-11-22T13:27:00.003+08:00

yest went to BP met lalaa and her friends. watched her play soccer for awhile then all went lpk with lalaa's friend punyer BF and his friends. haiyo. pening uh. get to spent sometime with lalaa under her void deck, then i took cab home cause im late. went home, bathe, siap2, then met aky under my block. took motor go town. kecoh siaa aky, bwk motor mcm org giler. haha. haiyo. lucky nothing happen eh. hehs.
after that went to yewtee lpk with ayie all, then go home.
lalaa is upset with me. haiyo. im sorry lalaa :(

you can be happy with him now. =)

2009-11-19T19:22:00.002+08:00

its not about you letting go of me,
its about me, letting go of you. hah.
alot of ppl know that you're attchd to (insertname) mahh.
im just a guy who was so called "tompang gembira" in your life.
haha. now then i realise how far i am from everything.
im happy leading my own life now. you can go with him la.
i dont mind. your life, your love. for what i care when you dont right? =)
ala, lets forget bout this la kay. dah penat uh, penat menunggu kamu. hahah.
thanks for all that you've done for me. thanks alot. byebye. wish you'll always be happy.

yours truly,
LackoMonyet

great day for me =)

2009-11-18T03:11:00.003+08:00

just now went to tanglin mall, celebrate bok's bdae. haha. just a small one today cause its a last minute plan. so nvm, just go aje. i wanted to mitt him also. haha.
then after that, went to (....), met (....). haha! lpk till 2+ then went home took cab. sanggop tau. cause i wanted to mitt her too. hehs. talk with her nonstop. best la kann. hee. now at home dont know what to do la. haiya. pape picet je la. byebye.

so BORING!

2009-11-14T15:43:00.003+08:00

today so boring la. no plans to go out ke? tkde org nk ajak lack klua ke? huh?
haiyo. sit at home doing nothing can die you know. pfft! i wanna go out!
please! anyone?!

Joke Of The Day =D

2009-11-12T22:33:00.004+08:00

just now went to werk and sumthing funny happened. hahahah!
there was a metal bar to put towel tau, then dart started to do pull ups.
i say to him, skali the thing drop off uh. then he laughed.
the next time we went to the toilet, he do pull up again.
bt in the end, pull up do him. the metal bar broke and came off from the wall.
dart's face was fucking chuak! hahahahah! when that thing came off, he was still holding that metal bar and looked at me. hahahah! i laughed at him. his face was soo funny! oh my. joke for the day. "Dart do pull up or pull up do Dart?" hahahahah! get it? hehs. dont know tmr whats gonna be the joke of the day. cant wait!
my job will be extended till the end of the month. wee! atleast got work, than no work?
haiyo. good enuf la. adr jgak duit nk spent2 kann? hee.

aku dah malas uh!

2009-11-11T00:06:00.006+08:00

best kann klua dgn jantan laen?! hah! aku ni sape la kann dgn kau.
gy mampos uh! aku dah malas uh. dah penat uh nk ckp lagy. tk gune kann aku bobal.
tetap kau tkkn dgr ckp aku punyer.

kepala buto lah! penat2 aku keje 24jam nk dptkann lebih duit stakat nk klua dgn kau biler bdae kau nnt, gini mcm pe kau buat aku? bagos la eh! klua dgn dier bole, dgn aku tk bole. adr je uh alasan. hah! tkpela kay. ekot suke hati kau. aku dah malas, dah penat. klw kau nk gini mcm, aku pon bole buat gini mcm okay? adr pegi, adr balek uh. jgn fikir aku diam2 kau bole pijak kepale aku uh.

tired like hell!

2009-11-10T22:14:00.002+08:00

yest morning, i worked as per normal at the diving company, then my friend msg me and asked whether i want to work at night with the family movers. they're paying $120 1day excluding overtime. bt the work was really rabak la. we worked till 10.45 just now morning. everyone was like zombie ald. pfft! penat siaa! i reached home, bath, and i was a goner. slept all the way. this thursday, adr lagy. so standby okay. haha! if the pay is good, we'll work. if not, dream on.

anw, solong havent mitt my mother in law. haiya. miss her la. miss marsha too. gee. need to mitt her sometime when im free. most probably, weekends la. hehe.
kay la, pape picet kay. tknk sudah. byebye.

sick! sick! sick! urgh!

2009-11-08T21:59:00.003+08:00

i didnt went out today. im down with fever and a very bad cough, very bad.
haiyo. tekak saket seiy. bt must tahan la. tmr im werkin la. cannot paitao.
dah janji members tkkn paitao lagy. haha. lacko must be strong.
mummy in law ask to eat medicine. she dont let me go out seiy. haiyo.
bt i also dont want to go out la. malas seiy. penat tau tk? pfft!

to piggy, im sorry i didnt went to satrio's kluaran just now. i was sick seiy.
tk bole angs! haiyo. really wanted to see you mabok. dah lamer seiy tk npk. pfft!
next time korg adr klua i turon okay? hehs.

atlast, a msg from piggy :D

2009-11-07T15:12:00.002+08:00

piggy msg me just now. hehs. happy la kann.
after 4days without any msgs, today she msg me.
to ayu, thanks for letting her use your hp to msg me.
wish i could repay you bck.

werk was fun!

2009-11-06T18:45:00.002+08:00

hey guys, i just came bck from werk.
gerek tau keje tady. know what we do?
we went alot of places. haha.
and guess what? we only werk for 5mins. the rest of the 9hours, we LEPAK! haha.
we went to labrador park, slept in the lorry for 1hr, then went bck to office. haha!
best tau. gaah!
tmr off day! wee! bole klua. haha!

busybusy

2009-11-06T03:20:00.002+08:00

have been werking these few days. sorry klw tk layan sape2.
tkde time uh. and also, my pp8 low. mls uh nk topup.
i need to save money cause sumthing's coming up soon.
hmm.somemore balek keje je, straight tido. now dah tkde lpk2 sangat.
dah tkle. haha. nxt time je. hehe. kay la. apape picet, tknk sudah.
byebye. iloveyou. gee.

changing for the better.

2009-11-04T07:48:00.002+08:00

to my mummy, thanks for all the advise. im glad to have you as my mummy in law! haha.
i'll try my best okay. slow and steady, wins the race. =D

to my daddy in law, thanks for sharing your past with us. hees. interesting plus very funny. the romanroman part. haha! i loike! hehe. thanks alot. and the way you address yourself as daddy yest, whoah! mcm best bt i can see you like "very tk kenal gaya". so am i. haha.

its great to have experienced ppl talking to you. you get alot of advises to change what you are now. im willing to change. just put in a little more hard work and im gonna be as good as new. bt if my attitude change too, then im sorry kay. im trying my best. hehe.

andand mummy, thanks for the cab money. we'll gonna pay you bck. maybe not in the sense of money. its gonna be a surprise. wee! just wait and see okay. =D

today im werking with dart. dont know work as what la. hehe. tapy who dont want $50 per day for 2weeks? hehs. in need of cash. dah janji byk org. hahahah!

kay la. nk siap2 go werk.
apape picet bt ppd low. hehe.
byebye. i LOVE my in laws! =D

im just a normal being.

2009-11-03T18:31:00.004+08:00

you didnt know what happened.
maybe if you were in my place, you'll be upset too.
its hard for me to explain things when i dont even know whats going on.
im lost siaa. i didnt know what to do.
i thot of just ignoring you, bt at night you txt me.
that changed my mind. idk piggy. get me out of this situation.
i dont want any of this. please la.

brother from another mother. =D

2009-11-02T22:02:00.001+08:00

i miss dyno la! haiya. biler lagy dpt jumpe dier eh?
dier sch, abeh lagy tinggal kt teck whye skrg. walao!
bt every friday mesti jumpe dier. hehe. sayaang dier la!

i didnt thot it would happen.

2009-11-02T05:52:00.003+08:00

just now, i received a msg from someone. wanna know what he said? urgh!
i dont wanna talk about it la! sakit hati uh!
i didnt thot that it would happen again. this time, he confessed to me and told me to ask her if i dont believe it. siak uh! lack tgh happy2, abeh ni bende pulak terjadi.
babi uh! can someone help me? please? i really need someone to cool me down.
im upset, im down. i cant even think properly. argh! please la! help me out.
get me out of this situation. i wanted to be happy, bt in the end this happened.
idk whether piggy knows about this. bt he still can ask me to ask her if i dont believe it. fcuk siaa! i dont know what to say ald. im lost, lost in the world of love.
no one can help me besides her, only her. im drowning, im dying.

am i disturbing someone else's relationship? piggy?

2009-11-01T07:40:00.004+08:00

you wont know when im sad. hais.
why isit hard for me to have a happy relationship?
what did i do wrong to deserve all this?
why cant i just have that relationship successful?
can someone tell me? please? pfft!
idk seiy. i dont know whether its true or not.
who should i believe? who should i trust?
im confused. im sad. im down.
please show me the way to deal with all this problems.
i dont wanna part. just make all this problems go away,
and i'll be happy enough to have you.
all i want is to be happy with you piggy.

iloveyou, piggy.

no more phone. how?!

2009-10-31T01:07:00.002+08:00

to everyone who have my number, i wont be using hp anymore tau.
if you wanna cntct me, you have to find someways la. hehs.
it will be hard not having a phone to cntct my friends and especially my piggy.
how seiy? i havent tell her yet. i call her bt she nvr pickup her phone. hais.
dont know how else to msg and call her after tmr. hope she reads my post.
mittin you will be extra hard this time. no phone to cntct makes it even harder.
piggy tkmo notti2 eh? piggy notti, berok pok you uh! hee.

iloveyou piggy!
im missin you babe! =D

byebye ppl. takecare.

happyhappyhappyhappyhappy! =D

2009-10-29T05:33:00.002+08:00

yest piggy came down to yewtee. just to mitt me. haha!
met her then lepak skejap. she's with fifi. best la kann dpt jumpe piggy.
happy sangatsangat! hehs. miss her so much siaa! grr!
ni jap lagy nk call piggy. accompany her to werk otf so she wont get bored. haha!
okay la tu. atleast i care kann. hees.
imissyou la piggy! im lovin you so much! berok promise tk notti2 kay. haha. piggy pob tkmo notti! grr.

not in the mood.

2009-10-28T15:47:00.001+08:00

disappointment in progress. please dont disturb.

you make me happy.

2009-10-26T07:56:00.003+08:00

finally, i get to talk to piggy otp. haiyo. its been like so long we didnt talk.
bt she sounded so different. idk why. hmm maybe bacause i miss her too much. hehs.
mcm happy gitu kann dpt bobal dgn piggy. wee. i hope you're happy too piggy.
actually nari piggy ajak jumpe, bt then mama pulak saket. haiya. so tk jady.
piggy said wednesday bole jumpe. bt i scared wednesday im werking. haiya! how how?!
nvm la. i'll try my very best just to mitt her la. hees. rinduuuu la sgt kann. hais.
really happy getting to talk to piggy. =D i love my one&only piggy la! hehs. ^.^

werk is all i do.

2009-10-24T08:14:00.002+08:00

today will be my 2nd day of werk. hehs. yest was really fun. supervisor gerek, keje dgn members. somemore keje kte lepak seiy. best! gaji tetap masok pe. hahahah! hopefully today is the same as yest uh. klw lepak jgak kann best. nothing much to do. aslkann gaji masok sudah la. grr!

piggy, its been 6days you've not been msging me. you told me to wait for you to msg me. bt when isit will you msg me bie? how long should i wait? hais. idk how to find for you ald. idk whatelse to do now. please. text me asap. im worried. im scared. im lonely. ='(

still waitin for you. 6.48am

2009-10-23T06:41:00.004+08:00

each day i think bout you.
thinkin bout your whereabouts,
how are you doing,
your work,
your health,
your allowance for each day. hmm.
each day you dont msg me,
the worriedness for you grows bigger.
afraid you might be sick or sumthing.
different things will go inside my head.
im sorry for not being there for you always.
bt the least i could do was to always call you.
im really sorry.
i hope today you'll msg me.
im really hoping so.
i love you.

today im werkin at sentosa. i also dont know as what. haha.
ppl called me and my frens to werk. so we just go werk uh.
the pay pon quite good la. for 1 straight week im werkin.
so im gonna be real busy. from morning to night everyday.
hope the werk will be good. =D
byebye ppl. imissyou la!

its all about you baby.

2009-10-21T19:37:00.001+08:00

babygirl, dont make me worry kay.
text me when you can. dont hesitate when you have the chance to msg kay bie.
do note that i love you so much. im missin my piggy.
sayaaaang piggy smpi mati!!

its time for a surprise. hees.

2009-10-21T04:25:00.002+08:00

piggy! piggy! piggy! piggy! haha! =D

actually, i just wanna tell you that i wanna give you a surprise. =)
jgn terkejot okay. hehs. pape picet kay.
aku rindu kau la! haiya. sayaaaang piggy aku la! =D

hope youre happy without me. ='(

2009-10-20T18:36:00.004+08:00

just now, i tried calling piggy using my hp and hse phone, bt she didnt pick up.
then i tried using another num, she picked up and kept quiet. then there was this guy who said hello, bt i just kept mum.
hais. im wondering who is that particular guy. maybe her new bf i guess.
maybe she's happy without me. maybe she's ald forgetting bout me. hmm.
lacko lacko, slalu kacau pompan org. pfft!
tkpela. klw piggy happy, then piggy just go with that guy.
maybe he makes you even more happier than i do.
i'll be happy for you, i'll always be. dont have to think or worry bout me anymore kay?
i'll mend my own ways be it good or bad.
you told me to wait for you till you get a new hp, i waited, bt you went away.
im sorry for everything that made you mad or sad. maybe you didnt want to be with me at all. hais.
hope you'll be happy always. if you need anything, just text or call me. i'll always be here to help you. do take good care of youself. eat when youre hungry, rest when youre tired. dont want you to fall sick and suffer in the future.
i'll just keep memories with you. all the happy times we had, and even the bad times we've been thru together. 150708 wont be erased, bt always be here in my heart.
stay happy, and dont always quarrel okay piggy? hehs. byebye tc.

now im all alone. bt still, im waiting for her. her msg or call each&everyday.
im gonna be real happy when she msg me someday. haiya.
we got to sacrifice in order to see the other party happy.
if she's happy, i will too.

afta this, im going to jurong. go mitt my lil gf. haha. Marsha! hees. hope she's happy to mitt me ltr on. really miss her so much la. dah lamer tk jumpe la kann.
haiya. apape picet je la. tknk sudah. byebye. i miss that lil piggy. hais.

still the same.

2009-10-19T14:49:00.003+08:00

i tried calling her during her lunch time. bt she still didnt pick up my call. i didnt slept all the way till now. im sleepy, bt i dont want to sleep. who cares anw? hmm.
dont know la. im sorry for everything. goodbye.

(11.30am)

did that just for you, bt it didnt turned great.

2009-10-19T07:47:00.004+08:00

i was awake the whole night cause i told someone that i'll be calling her in the morning before she goes to werk. just for her, i didnt slept. i held my eyes wide open so that i could call her and accompany her thru her journey to werk. i called her from 6.30am till now, 7.50am. bt still no answer. bt there was one call she ACCIDENTALLY picked up and then put it down. how sad could it be? i waited for the right time just to call her so that she wont be lonely thruout her journey, bt idk what was she thinking. i feel so sad, i feel disappointed. "i know im not your BF, bt dont treat me this way." nvm la. if you wanna continue being this way, then go ahead.
berok will only just wait for piggy. thats all.
you dont wanna msg me or call me, then nvm. i dont wanna be a pest in your life.
when you're angry, you dont give me the chance to speak. bt when im angry, everything goes bck in place when we talked it out. im always the one losing. im just a total failure. im disappointed.

(7.51am)

crying without you. pain in the heart no one knows.

2009-10-18T22:42:00.002+08:00

you make me cry. what did i do?
why cant we just talk it out?
why must you hide everything from me?
how will our love grow that way?
nvr did i hide anything from you.
how are we gonna solve our problems this way?
think bout it piggy.
i know im not the one that suits you.
bt maybe, things will change if you make the effort to love like you always do.
im not the perfect one for you, bt i can be the one who will always love you no matter what happens between us.
you asked me to wait for you rmbr? i still got that msg. im still waiting for you.
imissyou. imissyou real bad. hope things would change. i dont want this to drag on and on.
things have to change for the better of our love.
iloveyou piggy. hope you do too.

had a great time yest.

2009-10-18T18:24:00.003+08:00

yest night, went bowling with my friends. ramai gylerr siaa org. haiyo. kte je dah ramai. haha! played 3games tapy mcm lamer gitu nk habis.
atlast, dpt jgak jumpe danny. dier pon maen bowling jgak. klakar siak dier maen. ala, first timers always like that la. hehs.went home arnd 3am. really had a great time with my friends. =)

its been 3days since piggy last msg me. haiyo. so sad kann? everyday i msg her, call her bt no reply. dont know till when she'll gonna be this way. piggy klw marah, burok! seram tau. hais. really miss her la. see how la. monday klw dpt call ke msg dier, i'll be very happy la. hope to receive a msg from piggy la!

byebye.

didnt expect you to say that to me. ='(

2009-10-17T06:51:00.007+08:00

yest afternoon, went to take my pay. then i was odw to novena to take piggy from werk. i msg her ald bt she didnt reply. bt when i was ald at orchard, she msg me and said, "im not werking . im with mama ." then i was shocked, i thot she was at werk. bt then she said, " sorry then . im kinda not in the mood . hmm . go back aye ."
i felt so down, i felt so upset. didnt expect her to say that seiy. ='( i turned bck and make my way home. i was so so sad seiy. she said like that to me. hais. why seiy? why must say like that? theres no need to say like that seiy. haiyo.

i also dont know why she's mad at me.
im just telling you bout what i know and there you were getting angry with me. why? i wasnt angry at all when i found out bout that seiy. you didnt even picked up my call. hais. whats happening now? why must it happen now? why seiy?

bt i know she's at werk, cause she's not using mama's number. bt still i didnt go to novena since she didnt want to mitt me. what could i do? hmm. there isnt a need to lie to me. its not too difficult to just tell me the truth. nothing wrong pe. haiyo. idk why la. atleast i wont scold if you atleast tell me what. susah sangat ke bie? hmm. ni pon dier tukar blog URL dier. idk how to find it now. i cant get into tagged cause a fcuking person go change my password! babi! klakar pe siaa! fcuk siaa! bad days are coming again! i hate it! i really hate it siaa! urgh! im tired la. super tired.

piggy, if you feel like msging me, then just msg la. im always here waiting. like you asked me to wait for you, here i am waiting. bt if you dont want to msg, then nvm. i know who i am. aint nobody to you. hais! idk whats happening la!

myra, im sorry if i troubled you. i didnt mean to let you go thru all this trouble.

i always make ppl so difficult siaa! can i like just vanish from this world?! can i?! huh?! argh! more better what! i dont have to be so troublesome towards ppl anymore pe! fcuk siaa!

lacko lacko, just stop making ppl's life difficult okay. hmm.

im sorry piggy, im sorry myra. thats the reason why many piggy's GFs dont like me. i make ppl difficult. im sorry. i wont disturb all of you guys anymore. i really appreciate what you guys have done for me. i really appreciate everything. im really sorry. shouldnt have asked you guys for help in the ferst place. should have just go thru everything myself kann? hais!

hope piggy will msg me someday. i really miss her. =( i miss piggy so bad. i thot she'd be happy when i wanted to take her from werk, bt end up, she didnt even want to mitt me. hmm.

im sorry piggy.
im sorry to all her GFs.
im really sorry for all the troubles.
im sorry. ='(

trust to love, love to trust.

2009-10-16T03:46:00.005+08:00

all i need was you to be true to me. thats all im asking from you.
im not asking much. im not mad at you even after i know what happened.
i just dont want to quarrel anymore sweetheart. im just asking for a simple thing.
i dont like when you lie to me. i really dont like it.
you should know how it feels when someone lied to you. it hurts baby.
even if im a nobody in your life, just dont lie to me. hais.
maybe you're mad at me, bt idk why. dont lie to me anymore. please.
just tell me, i wont be angry. i'll give you the freedom, bt have your limits.
you got feelings, i got feelings too bie. piggy, please dont do this anymore. ='(

if love is happy, so should we.

2009-10-15T03:27:00.002+08:00

sad. neglected. upset. ignored. disappointed.

no msgs received. . .

written at 12am.

tired bt still got the energy to miss you. haha.

2009-10-14T22:33:00.002+08:00

argh! im tired! just went to werk, mcm nk mams siaa! dah lamer tkde movers punyer job kann, skejap je dah penat seiy. haiyo! tmr im werkin at swissotel sumore. from 5pm to 2am tau! grr. conferm penat seiy. pfft! tapy tkpe. balek TIDO sudah! hahahah!

anw, at 12oclock, its berok&piggy's 15monthsary! yay! haha. lamer kann? i know. grr. im gonna buy sumthing for her. hehs. really hope she'll love it. gee. cant wait to mitt piggy la!
who's piggy? who else if its not my crazy lil girl? hahahah! find out urself la kay?
byebye. imissyou la piggy! sayaaaang piggy smpi mati! =D